Sometimes I just want “nothing”
Sometimes I wish I could just have nothing… And when I say nothing I mean nothing…
I wish that at times I could lock myself away in an empty room with nothing… no sound, no colors, no people, no furniture, no TV, no books, no magazines, no radio, no PC, no laptop, no internet, no cellphone, just nothing nothing nothing… I just want an empty room with white walls and a floor, a door to get in and out, and other than that just nothing… (well, maybe a blanket, but that’s it). I don’t want to have anyone with me in there, I just want to be alone, nekkid (as clothes would just bother me I think) and do nothing…
The reason for this:
I am hardly ever alone and/or without noise around me
When I am at home, there is always the noises that come with living in an appartment building, and the traffic and people outside
When I have to go somewhere there is always the street noises
Or the driving noises… even when I am alone in the car there is the never letting up busy traffic
There is the parking garage, with the nutty drivers, at the medical center
At the office there is always the 50+ number of people that always want something
There is the endless ringing phone
The neverending email coming in
There’s people at the department, in the elevators, in the hallways, on the stairs
There’s the playground at school, where I pick up The Kid, always filled with screaming kids
There is always either working, taking care of someone else, talking, TV, radio, internet
Even when sleeping there is always the noises outside (can’t sleep with the window closed) or the nutty upstairs neighbor who never seems to sleep and always seems to have to make some noise
I find myself craving even just a few minutes of silence… In which I don’t have to listen to anyone’s questions or demands, in which I don’t have to do anything, think of anything, hear anything…
That’s what I want… n.o.t.h.i.n.g. Or someone just shut off my brain for a while, I think that would work too…
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I remember we talked about this when you were here last and I totally understand! Oh to just switch it all off for a little while huh?
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I am SO with you on this one. Except that usually I am all alone at work (but it’s noisy as hell there). I’ve been working with other people or on the road for over a month now, and it’s driving me to the edge of sanity.
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Penelope: OMG yes!!!
Nobody: Maybe we should build something like that and start renting it out, huh?
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I know exactly what you mean. I know Lil’ M and Mister can’t understand why I would rather they leave the TV off and leave me alone when I get ready to go out. I just want it quiet and peaceful and be able to tend to myself for ten minutes!
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I completely understand this.
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Interesting perspective. I almost always want something OTHER than nothing.
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So what you want is a padded room :D I hear they’ve got ‘em at a certain kind of institution :)
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I think we all need a little nothing in our lives at times.
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Finn: Yeah, even a few mins would be great
Turnbaby: Not much chance of nothing at ConFab, Baby! right? Which is not the point, fortunately. That one is for fun fun fun!!!
John: Hmmm… really? Even when the upstairs neighbors are being noisy?
Rache: Well, actually, that would pretty much do I think
* pixie *: I guess we do
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The closest I’ve found (& yes, it’s ‘noise’) is a calming or ‘white noise’ CD playing low in a bubble bath by candlelight with a glass of wine. Heaven.
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A serious moment – during the ’60s, experiments were made using an isolation tank that you may have heard about. People were suspended in the tank in a saline solution that made them weightless with no light or noise. About 1/2 hour was about all they could take. People need input. I agree, it would be great to shut out the world but we are not made for it.
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Tug: Yeah me too and then the upstairs neighbor starts making noise or whatever…. LOL
JustDave: Thing is… it’s not supposed to be days on end… Even just 15 mins or half an hour would be fine. That is exactly what I sometimes need.
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