The Dutch Files

Some of you might have seen THIS Twitter flash by on October 6…

I had just gotten some news that made my eyes tear, but in a good way… And though I wanted to scream it off the rooftops reaaaally loud.. I couldn’t… I couldn’t tell anyone yet…

I did crack and emailed The Guy to tell him, who thought it was great news as well.

I can disclose what it was about now… Jade and Tug were actually closer to guessing the news than they thought they were. No Jade, *I* am not pregnant. And no Tug, I am pretty sure *you* are not pregnant either…

BUT!!!

*drumroll*

I AM in fact gonna be an aunty again in about 6-7 months from now if all goes well! Because The Sis is pregnant again! Just a few days before Lill Niece turning 1 year old she called me and told me the great news.

So fingers crossed that all goes well, and I can hold one tiny little bundle of joy in my arms again beginning of May 2009!!! And if the new arrival is gonna be as nuts about The Kid as Lill Niece is, he’s gonna be a busy boy in the years to come.

Suh-queeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! And just for the record: I think this one is gonna be a boy…

Remember THIS?

Remember this tiny little bundle of joy that came into the world to enrich our family?

Yeah, a YEAR has passed and our cutie sweet naughty crawling getting in to mischief babbling little girl is turning ONE YEAR OLD today! And she’s still the cutest little girl in the whole big fat wide world! I love her to bits!

Hey Sweetie! A very happy happy happy FIRST birthday! Be sure I will be over there on Saturday to really awesomely incredibly tremendously celebrate your birthday with The Sis, The BIL, The Mom and of course The Kid. And well… once The Kid sets foot inside the house, nobody else matters. Those two are like bread and butter, like gin and tonic, like apple and pie. A 10 year age difference and still they are crazy about eachother!

So Happy Birthday to The Lill Niece! If you have a chance, go over to The Sis’ blog. I am sure she’d love to get a comment or two today :)

Pee.Es. click to enlarge the pics… they’re worth it!

I had a great 2 days with Lill Girlie… I picked her up from her dad’s, The Chief, on Fridayafternoon and headed to the beach with her. It was 28C (82F) over here, and I can happily say that I had my bare nekkid feet in the Dutch seawater with the late afternoon sun burning on my skin for the very first time this year and my heart was singing… Only thing that could have made that better was if I had had The Kid and The Guy with me. I felt blissfully happy for the first time in a long long time. The Guy was right: the sun has a uncanning healing power for some reason…

We bought Lill Girlie an early birthday gift as she will be turning 8 today, we went past the SandCastle display that was going on with “Disney” as its theme [pics at the FlickR page, just click the badge in the sidebar], then had some scrumptious Italian food (and a chilled glass of rosé wine for me) at one of the beach side restaurants, got ice cream and then went home and sat our asses down on the DutchBitch Couch to watch Simpsons The Movie.

Yesterday was babysitting Lill Niece-day. The Sis and The BIL went out for a motorcycle ride and I lathered myself in Baby- and Girliefun all day. Lill Girlie got to ride on the back of The BIL’s motorcycle at the end of the day and I got to send The Chief picks of that on his mobile, heh… Sorry, that one was just too friggin’ good to pass up.

As was the pic of her on top of the shed after The BIL put her up there. She almost pissed herself laughing and all she could say was “Picture picture! Send it to daddy!!!”. Well, who am I to defy the wishes of Lill Girlie, right? I am sure he shat himself between that and the motorcycle pics and still he got me a glass of wine when I dropped Lill Girlie off last night.

I might not be on line as much today as The BIL is installing my new ADSL internet connection. I got rid of my cable internet subscription at Ziggo.cunt and he’s today making a first attempt to install the new stuff. If all goes well, I’ll be fully operational at the end of the day! Cross your… well, you know the drill… everything you can possibly cross…

There’s so many things in life that I can’t influence or change and that at times may upset me. Currently one of those is making life just that tad more confusing,  and making me wish I could reach out and make things better for someone very dear to me.

It made me think today about the things in my life that I am thankful for, appreciative of…

Yeah, you bettah move on out of here if you don’t do mushy, cuz that’s today’s overall theme on The Dutch Files… When something is confusing me, or worrying me like it is now, it is so easy to forget about all the things that do make life worthwhile and make me happy…

The Kid makes me happy for sure. He’s my main ray of sunshine. I love him to bits. He’s got his quirks but all in all he’s a great kid and very caring and protective of his Mom (”Mom, that lottery ticket that you bought… that you said was gonna win you 25 million euros… you háve to keep in mind that you could also not win anything with it… I don’t want you to be really disappointed if you don’t win, you know“)

My Man makes me VERY happy as well, even though it’s tough at times that we are thousands of miles apart and I am missing him like crazy every single day… My heart skips a beat when I think of him… And there is little I wouldn’t do to make sure we can see eachother again soon… And you know, once we do, I so want to snuggle myself up to him again… and just “be”…

Welcoming Jill at the airport the other day made me happy as well. Even though I know she had a hard time saying goodbye to her family in the US, I know that she has been looking forward to coming to Dutchyland very much.  And that makes me happy fór her. And even though the fucking airlines lost her luggage and she was not amused to find out after a full day of connecting flights, I was so happy to see her and for The Chief letting me take time off work to come welcome her at the airport…

I love the doorbell ringing yesterday afternoon and the mailman handing me a package… This package [see picture] that was sent to me by surprise by really dear friends for being there for them… You know who you are and I was so moved by it. Thank you. Your wonderful gesture actually made me cry… You knów you didn’t have to do that and still I immensely appreciate it!

I love Penelope for letting me send a package, that I ordered at a UK webshop who won’t ship to Dutchyland, to her office address. And ya know… that could’ve been food for a load of funmaking at her expense, as I was not at all sure the package was packed up in a discrete way and the order confirmation only showed the name and address of her company and not her actual name… Imagine if one of the guys over there had gotten hold of it!

I adore my family. My Mom, The Sis, The BIL and the Lill Niece. The Sis who called me yesterday that from now on I am the official guardian of the Lill Niece in the event that something might happen to her and The BIL (and believe me, that shit happens, it happened to The BIL’s brother and SIL), and in actual fact trusting me with the life and raising of their daughter if need be.

I love people reaching out. I am someone who believes in being there for people who are having a rough time, which all the more makes me appreciate the people that have reached out to me as well, when I let on that I am having a hard time… Though I am not really that good at accepting stuff like that, I very much appreciate it…

There’s a lot to be thankful for. Now if I could just “fix” this shitty thing going on, that is currently worrying me and occupying my mind… Yeah, deal with it. I am having a mushy day and I feel like spreadin’ dah love… Peace sugahs, Love, and Understanding… and the answer is blowing in the wind… that too… I think…

The regulars amongst you know that on October 9 of last year one of my biggest wishes was granted: I became an aunty! And well, needless to say that she is thé cutest niece evah…

I love being an aunty, especially now that the Sis and the BIL had a girl, something that I never experienced as a mother. Senna is übercute and she is also the happiest baby I have ever seen. Looking at her and saying “hiya” to her will for certain make her smile. And with “smile” I mean one of those from ear to ear ones.

The Kid is crazy about his tiny niece as well and loves going over to the Sis’s. Having him stay the night when I need a babysitter has never been a problem at the Sis’s place but since Senna was born, it’s one of his favourite past times.

But there is something else that is really great about becoming an aunty. It hit me just a few weeks ago. Because you know, for a long time, for personal reasons, it seemed like the Sis was not going to be a mother and the BIL was not going to be a father. At some point last year, I think it was at Easter (heh, funny how Easter has been reallly good to me in the past 2 yrs, come to think of it, heh) we learned that our family would be extended with a baby on the way afterall.

When I was at the Sis recently and again when she was visiting me, with the BIL and lill Niece, I found myself gazing at them. Because the other wonderful thing about all this is that I find it so wonderful to see the Sis and the BIL as parents. It’s very becoming to them and they do an awesome job. They have the most content baby ever and seeing them doing their thing with her, feeding her, bathing her, talking to her, playing with her, and whatever else I was able to witness over the past half year, just makes me very happy. If anyone deserves that much happiness it’s them and having Senna has been so very good to them.

It’s an amazing feeling to look at your little sister (shut up! even if it’s just barely 1.5 year, you are still my little sister) and her husband taking care of and raising a wonderful baby. It makes me go all mushy inside to see this happy family together and I feel really blessed to be a part of it with The Kid and of course my Mom.

Just wanted to share that with ya… Oh, and that brandnew pic? Doesn’t that make you want to go all “squeeeee” inside? It does, right?

Now, for those of you who have not yet picked up on the HUGE event for today, go HERE to read up on it. My ex bliancee (it was an amicable break up, he stepped aside in favour of Rob, though I still don’t understand why I can’t have 2 men at the same time *pout*) is having the 2nd part of his Big Honkin’ Duet Show on Blog Talk Radio tonight! Eighteen (18) bloggers from around the blogosphere, all with a song and story to tell, all singing a duet with Fab. Rock, Country, Pop, he’s got it all!!! Tonight, one night only, the blogosphere is alive with the sound of music!

Don’t miss it! Go HERE to listen to it: 6 p.m. EST (which is midnight at DutchBitch Casa, thanks babe, that’ll be sóme nightmares tonight)